Too Much

Ever since my rheumy increased my ssz from bid to tid, I’ve been tempted to quit my meds completely.  I haven’t done it, but I’ve sure been tempted.  A zillion different vitamins plus prescriptions for three pills with breakfast, two with lunch, and five with dinner.  It’s just too much.

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I’ve dropped the vitamins, reducing my pill count to ten per day.  That’s still an awful lot of medication to swallow.  There are days that I never want to see another pill.

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For the past seven years, I’ve taken my children with me to the local nursing home once a week. 

We’ve met many people with great life stories.  Among them are those who were afflicted with RA before treatment from DMARDs* existed.  I’ve seen their hands and wheelchairs.

Not too long ago I talked to a dear lady who was extremely upset that she’d be getting a permanent catheter – because of her RA.  It was just too hard for the staff to help her to the bathroom, but she couldn’t go by herself, and she couldn’t use a bedpan.

I know what can happen with untreated/undertreated RA.  It’s not an abstract theory — not some scare tactic that I’ve heard from an old guy in a white coat.  I’ve seen it myself.

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I think about those wonderful old ladies in the nursing home.  I think about their hands, deformed so greatly that they can barely operate the joystick on their electric wheelchairs.  No holding a book or writing a letter.  No knitting.  No typing on the computer.  No playing the piano or violin or guitar.  No swimming.  I think of a permanent catheter.  I think of not being able to pick apples with my kids.

Maybe those pills aren’t too much, after all. 

Edited 9/5/09
Disease Modifying Anti-Rheumatic Drugs – medicines that alter the normal course of crippling rheumatoid arthritis


2 thoughts on “Too Much

  1. RE the catheter: no idea why they weren’t putting her in a diaper instead. Lots of the residents wear diapers. There was probably something in addition to the RA going on. Still, I haven’t worn diapers since I was 2 years old, and don’t relish the thought of RA sending me back to them.

    And it really is okay to post comments 🙂
    Email’s okay, too, but if more than one person sends email about the same thing, I’ll post a comment.

  2. I was just thinking that about why not a diaper? I hate that for her- that would be devastating. And I agree with your statement on meds. I cut them back sometimes when I don’t hurt…but if my body needs them, my body gets them!

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